one might ask why we didn't try harder to still live in this neighborhood but i have lived right here for 12 years if i don't live somewhere else, that's like letting yourself...i dunno...rot.
tonight the example was the keg. the keg isnt' a good example because really, i think i've eaten at the granville island keg about 3 times in the evening. i just dont' really like going out for steak when it is so easy to make a really good steak at home without it costing so freakin' much but we had a coupon for this one. but what i have done is eaten there over 50 times for lunch...mostly because it was quite close while i was working on granville island. they had these chicken wings, their 3 pepper wings, that had some of the best hot wing flavouring that i've had in this city. for the past few weeks i've been craving them and when we got this coupon for renewing our art gallery membership early, it as a sign that i needed to go back to the keg for them.
well when we got there, they had taken the wings off of the menu.
and i remembered how much the things in my neighborhood have changed over the past 12 years and how things that i have loved for years have ended on their own without my giving up on them first, without moving away and for some reason i was less sad. less sad for sure about the keg because i no longer have any good reason at all to go there and since it's quite out of the way of my new neighbourhood and work, it will likely be a while before i go back. but even for the other things i love and will miss...they weren't going to be forever either.
on some level it made me feel better. i don't think it was ever about abandonment but i can't be abandoning the area if it's going to 'abandon' me all the time by changing anyways. maybe it's more of a way of knowing that change is an ok thing, that it's just another part of life.









